Current mood: pissy+ PMS-y
Current status: feel like punching sumone in their face!! Oh no, feel like putting laxatives into the food and give the thief a taste of his/her greediness!!!
Today's luck: real bad.... super bad!
p/s: not in a mood to be disturbed today!!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
wat a weekend
Yes i admit i am procrastinating!
I knw i have million things to do, but i juz can't bring myself together to get started.
This two weeks is really a great experience for me.
I actually found myself grow quite abit.
Not only in terms of my knowledge abt medicines, but also abt life.
When we're students, we complain abt studying.
When we're working, we complain abt work.
Human is just an ungrateful creatures.
I remb talking abt regrets in life. Sumone made this statement: How can you not have regrets in life?? So now, m gonna ask: do you ever have regrets in ur life??
The answ i gave was: it is possible. Everyday as you grow, you wil have new experiences and the thing tat once seems to be ur greatest regrets, might turn out to be the turning point of ur life.
But now if u gave me the ques again, i wil answ u: it's impossible to have no regrets.
Human's mind are tricky. God gave us the ability to 4get abt unhappy stuffs. It's a good thing to us definitely. It makes us stop dwelling abt the past and start moving forward. But forgeting it doesn't mean u dun have regrets isn't it? Sumtyms, it will juz appear vividly at the most unexpected moment. Occasionally it's due to the circumstances that we choose to make our regret not a regret. We force ourself to accept it thinking that it will soon b over. Never did we expect that it might just haunt you forever. My sis just made a decision which i think she will regret. Like wat i said, when things start evolving arnd money, it just gets complicated. Passionate abt wat you are doing is the most impt thing in life. Bcos passion is the only thing that can keep you going in this disgusting, horrible world.
Humans are weird. We wil complain alot abt the things that we are doing, but we never stop doing it. In fact, we complain for the sake of complaining. I love wat yz said to cj tat day: "Isn't it weird? we're complaning abt working but here we are working our ass off to get ourself a job." Don't you juz agree with what she said?
i knw i sound very depressing in this post. I think i am depressed. This 2 weeks really brought my thinking to a different level. Remb how the first day when they told u that pharmacy is great. All the ppl who is in pharmacy are smart students. Remb how they said pharmacists earn big bucks. Well, they forget to tell you that it only applies to 30% of the graduates. They forget to tell you that they are increasing the no. of pharmacy students and that now they dun even have enuf intern positions for all the graduates. Oh yah, they also forget to tell you that we are smart, but not AS SMART!!
Yes, i have been complaining abt pharmacy. I dun even knw why. To be honest, i dun quite hate wat i am doing. But working in retail is just not my thing. Giving out medicines that have already been prescribed by doctors doesn't seem to have much challange. Yesterday my pharmacy recieved a call frm the residential facilities saying that one of the patient just past away. And then the next thing i heard the owner said to my pharmacist is: "we hav to charge him for the last two webster pack that we did". At that moment, my heart sank.
But i do have to admit, pharmacists are smart. They can look at the freaking doctor's handwriting and tell u wat drug is it, wat is the dosing suppose to be. They can juz look at the script and say: i think the dose is wrong. i dunno hw they did it but apparently i can be this good if i work for more than 2 years or so. I guess it all comes with experience.
I also found myself hopeing that the tym wil just stop here. When you look at all the elderly pt that come in for medication, you are like looking at urself in the future. And you will reali get scared. Can u imagine urself not understanding a single word ppl are saying? I often seen so many elderly patients walking into the pharmacy with their hand trembling, handing me the script, trying hard to remb wat they need. And when u hand them the medication, telling them how to take the medicine, their eyes juz look past you. U dunno wat are they thinking, whether or not they are listening or they just simply can't process wat u're saying. It just kinda freaks me out. I would rather live a short enjoyable life then having a long miserable life. It's juz pathetic.
Ok i think everything arnd me is making me depressed. The weather is depressing, the amt of work i hav is depressing, ppl leaving for holiday is also making me depressed. Exam timetable is out too and it's equally depressing. I think i would better stop here b4 i plumped into real depression that i might require zoloft.
I knw i have million things to do, but i juz can't bring myself together to get started.
This two weeks is really a great experience for me.
I actually found myself grow quite abit.
Not only in terms of my knowledge abt medicines, but also abt life.
When we're students, we complain abt studying.
When we're working, we complain abt work.
Human is just an ungrateful creatures.
I remb talking abt regrets in life. Sumone made this statement: How can you not have regrets in life?? So now, m gonna ask: do you ever have regrets in ur life??
The answ i gave was: it is possible. Everyday as you grow, you wil have new experiences and the thing tat once seems to be ur greatest regrets, might turn out to be the turning point of ur life.
But now if u gave me the ques again, i wil answ u: it's impossible to have no regrets.
Human's mind are tricky. God gave us the ability to 4get abt unhappy stuffs. It's a good thing to us definitely. It makes us stop dwelling abt the past and start moving forward. But forgeting it doesn't mean u dun have regrets isn't it? Sumtyms, it will juz appear vividly at the most unexpected moment. Occasionally it's due to the circumstances that we choose to make our regret not a regret. We force ourself to accept it thinking that it will soon b over. Never did we expect that it might just haunt you forever. My sis just made a decision which i think she will regret. Like wat i said, when things start evolving arnd money, it just gets complicated. Passionate abt wat you are doing is the most impt thing in life. Bcos passion is the only thing that can keep you going in this disgusting, horrible world.
Humans are weird. We wil complain alot abt the things that we are doing, but we never stop doing it. In fact, we complain for the sake of complaining. I love wat yz said to cj tat day: "Isn't it weird? we're complaning abt working but here we are working our ass off to get ourself a job." Don't you juz agree with what she said?
i knw i sound very depressing in this post. I think i am depressed. This 2 weeks really brought my thinking to a different level. Remb how the first day when they told u that pharmacy is great. All the ppl who is in pharmacy are smart students. Remb how they said pharmacists earn big bucks. Well, they forget to tell you that it only applies to 30% of the graduates. They forget to tell you that they are increasing the no. of pharmacy students and that now they dun even have enuf intern positions for all the graduates. Oh yah, they also forget to tell you that we are smart, but not AS SMART!!
Yes, i have been complaining abt pharmacy. I dun even knw why. To be honest, i dun quite hate wat i am doing. But working in retail is just not my thing. Giving out medicines that have already been prescribed by doctors doesn't seem to have much challange. Yesterday my pharmacy recieved a call frm the residential facilities saying that one of the patient just past away. And then the next thing i heard the owner said to my pharmacist is: "we hav to charge him for the last two webster pack that we did". At that moment, my heart sank.
But i do have to admit, pharmacists are smart. They can look at the freaking doctor's handwriting and tell u wat drug is it, wat is the dosing suppose to be. They can juz look at the script and say: i think the dose is wrong. i dunno hw they did it but apparently i can be this good if i work for more than 2 years or so. I guess it all comes with experience.
I also found myself hopeing that the tym wil just stop here. When you look at all the elderly pt that come in for medication, you are like looking at urself in the future. And you will reali get scared. Can u imagine urself not understanding a single word ppl are saying? I often seen so many elderly patients walking into the pharmacy with their hand trembling, handing me the script, trying hard to remb wat they need. And when u hand them the medication, telling them how to take the medicine, their eyes juz look past you. U dunno wat are they thinking, whether or not they are listening or they just simply can't process wat u're saying. It just kinda freaks me out. I would rather live a short enjoyable life then having a long miserable life. It's juz pathetic.
Ok i think everything arnd me is making me depressed. The weather is depressing, the amt of work i hav is depressing, ppl leaving for holiday is also making me depressed. Exam timetable is out too and it's equally depressing. I think i would better stop here b4 i plumped into real depression that i might require zoloft.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Placement 2
so 2nd week of my placement has come to an end.
One more week to go and m free from the wake-up-at-7am-cycle.
but there's reali nth to look forward to after placement other than endless assignments and exams coming up.
So far 2nd week of placement is juz the same. I guess there's a limit to the things that you can learn in a community pharmacy.
Anyway, i stil learn new things for this 2nd week. I learn abt reimbursement. I improve myself in terms of counseling and OTC products. But stil no methadone handling! Sien.
I kinda realise there's oni 2 outcomes for this placement. either u wil like pharmacy even more, or you wil hate it even more. As for which grp do i belong?? I have no idea yet. But in terms of retail, it seems like i m more towards the hate it side. I dun hate the job, but i dun feel myself having much control over it. Retail is more towards business side and i am not a person that has special interest in business. Everyone loves money and business is def one o the ways to earn big bucks. But when you place your focus on money, everything wil b distorted. O course money plays a big role in our health care sys, esp to the government. And all o us do knw tat when u choose a treatment, you hav to b cost effective. Stil there is a diff btw the hospital and community. Those who worked in a pharmacy wil und wat i am talking abt. In fact, if you ever work in a shop, i'm sure u wil knw wat m i talking abt.
Finally the last week is comin, not sure whether m looking forward to it or not.
Do i want it to end? or do i want it to go on forever? hmm....
I sure dun want it to end, but i def dun wan it to go on forever. Irony.
One more week to go and m free from the wake-up-at-7am-cycle.
but there's reali nth to look forward to after placement other than endless assignments and exams coming up.
So far 2nd week of placement is juz the same. I guess there's a limit to the things that you can learn in a community pharmacy.
Anyway, i stil learn new things for this 2nd week. I learn abt reimbursement. I improve myself in terms of counseling and OTC products. But stil no methadone handling! Sien.
I kinda realise there's oni 2 outcomes for this placement. either u wil like pharmacy even more, or you wil hate it even more. As for which grp do i belong?? I have no idea yet. But in terms of retail, it seems like i m more towards the hate it side. I dun hate the job, but i dun feel myself having much control over it. Retail is more towards business side and i am not a person that has special interest in business. Everyone loves money and business is def one o the ways to earn big bucks. But when you place your focus on money, everything wil b distorted. O course money plays a big role in our health care sys, esp to the government. And all o us do knw tat when u choose a treatment, you hav to b cost effective. Stil there is a diff btw the hospital and community. Those who worked in a pharmacy wil und wat i am talking abt. In fact, if you ever work in a shop, i'm sure u wil knw wat m i talking abt.
Finally the last week is comin, not sure whether m looking forward to it or not.
Do i want it to end? or do i want it to go on forever? hmm....
I sure dun want it to end, but i def dun wan it to go on forever. Irony.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Placement 1
i started my week dreadfully bcos o placement. Seriously if u've gotten a place like 1 hours plus away, u will feel the same. although i start work at 9.15am, i have to get up at 7am. So i went to my pharmacy expecting the worse.
Little did i know, this pharmacy is really where God wants me to be. It is such a wonderful pharmacy tat i really dun mind traveling tat far to work here. The 1st day i reach, never did i expect that the pharmacist that m working with is malaysian. The best part is he/Chris is Loyi's fren. Wat a small world. Later on when i met my preceptor, turns out he was an ex-IHer. He said he was the 80's batch! Double WOW!! The 1st day was juz getting myself used to everything. Learn hw to use d dispensing software, learn how to sort out the scripts, how to use the cashier and stuff. It's reali cool and exciting for me as this is my first tym working in a pharmacy! My pharmacy also provides medication services to residential care facilities as well as methadone program. The pharmacy is not big but it reali does have lotsa services, which makes it a triple plus point for me. XD Only the first day, m given the chance to do dispensing and counselling, i muz say the pharmacist reali think too highly on me.haha.. And also i did my first webster-pack and webcare.These 2 things are basically juz sth tat makes taking multiple medication easier. Not sure why is cj so excited abt doin it, but i did quite alot o it and i dun seem to b very excited abt it! LOL.
3rd day, urs truly fall sick AGAIN! but this tym is a serious one. The moment i reached home on tues, i straight away went to bed, without bathing or having dinner. And slept all the way till the next day 9 plus, called my pharmacy and kelly lloyd, then went straight back to bed until 1 sth. in the afternoon, i hav to go see a doc to get a MC. M already feeling unwell on tues morning, bt stil went to d pharmacy as usual. And dunno wat the heck is wrong, the pharmacy is super busy. So i stood 1 whole day until my back almost break and it was raining very heavily when m goin back.
For yesterday and today, i practically work in the pharmacy wit a congested nose. And i sound so nasal-ly (like an alien! :X) today, i bet it sort of stunned some o d customers. :S Today is the end of my 1st week placement, time reali passes by sooo fast, without us even knowing. But like wat my dad always says: if u think tat time passes by fast, then u muz b having fun.
Reali thx to my pharmacist for being so patient to me!haha.. Reali not easy especially when i got no working experience at all. Hope i din't raise his bp until he nds Avapro!haha... Both my preceptor and the pharmacist tat m working with are really good. They are patient and willing to teach me everything. Although i havn't been given a chance to handle methadone, hopefully i wil b able to do it sumtym next week. ;p
Till then, i will need plenty of rest for the weekend and hopefully i dun go back next week still sounding like an alien!!
p/s: Screwed p'col!
Little did i know, this pharmacy is really where God wants me to be. It is such a wonderful pharmacy tat i really dun mind traveling tat far to work here. The 1st day i reach, never did i expect that the pharmacist that m working with is malaysian. The best part is he/Chris is Loyi's fren. Wat a small world. Later on when i met my preceptor, turns out he was an ex-IHer. He said he was the 80's batch! Double WOW!! The 1st day was juz getting myself used to everything. Learn hw to use d dispensing software, learn how to sort out the scripts, how to use the cashier and stuff. It's reali cool and exciting for me as this is my first tym working in a pharmacy! My pharmacy also provides medication services to residential care facilities as well as methadone program. The pharmacy is not big but it reali does have lotsa services, which makes it a triple plus point for me. XD Only the first day, m given the chance to do dispensing and counselling, i muz say the pharmacist reali think too highly on me.haha.. And also i did my first webster-pack and webcare.These 2 things are basically juz sth tat makes taking multiple medication easier. Not sure why is cj so excited abt doin it, but i did quite alot o it and i dun seem to b very excited abt it! LOL.
3rd day, urs truly fall sick AGAIN! but this tym is a serious one. The moment i reached home on tues, i straight away went to bed, without bathing or having dinner. And slept all the way till the next day 9 plus, called my pharmacy and kelly lloyd, then went straight back to bed until 1 sth. in the afternoon, i hav to go see a doc to get a MC. M already feeling unwell on tues morning, bt stil went to d pharmacy as usual. And dunno wat the heck is wrong, the pharmacy is super busy. So i stood 1 whole day until my back almost break and it was raining very heavily when m goin back.
For yesterday and today, i practically work in the pharmacy wit a congested nose. And i sound so nasal-ly (like an alien! :X) today, i bet it sort of stunned some o d customers. :S Today is the end of my 1st week placement, time reali passes by sooo fast, without us even knowing. But like wat my dad always says: if u think tat time passes by fast, then u muz b having fun.
Reali thx to my pharmacist for being so patient to me!haha.. Reali not easy especially when i got no working experience at all. Hope i din't raise his bp until he nds Avapro!haha... Both my preceptor and the pharmacist tat m working with are really good. They are patient and willing to teach me everything. Although i havn't been given a chance to handle methadone, hopefully i wil b able to do it sumtym next week. ;p
Till then, i will need plenty of rest for the weekend and hopefully i dun go back next week still sounding like an alien!!
p/s: Screwed p'col!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
My 'free' day
It's always good to have a free day! A day without any classes( not talking abt weekends here!).
I had all my presentations done last week, so this week i finally got my day off on Thurs.
But, Thurs is not exactly my rest day! I was awake frm 9am ( i slept at 2am!) until now.
Life has been busy with all sorts o stuffs, especially for the past few weeks with all the assignments and presentations goin on.
And lotsa chores have yet to be done.
schedule for the day:
morning -> study med chem, do laundry.
After lunch -> went safe way for groceries shopping and to get a cake for my fren. then went back started makin cookies.
After dinner -> went for out usual stroll, then call/sms numerous ppl to plan for a b'day surprise! Alas, the b'day surprise ended wit a bitch being a bitch!!!
As u can see, my tym is well spent!It's good to feel significant. But it's crap to feel like a coward! Finally i see my true self, for being a coward!! COWARD!!
I had all my presentations done last week, so this week i finally got my day off on Thurs.
But, Thurs is not exactly my rest day! I was awake frm 9am ( i slept at 2am!) until now.
Life has been busy with all sorts o stuffs, especially for the past few weeks with all the assignments and presentations goin on.
And lotsa chores have yet to be done.
schedule for the day:
morning -> study med chem, do laundry.
After lunch -> went safe way for groceries shopping and to get a cake for my fren. then went back started makin cookies.
After dinner -> went for out usual stroll, then call/sms numerous ppl to plan for a b'day surprise! Alas, the b'day surprise ended wit a bitch being a bitch!!!
As u can see, my tym is well spent!It's good to feel significant. But it's crap to feel like a coward! Finally i see my true self, for being a coward!! COWARD!!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
L.O.V.E
"What do you want most in your life?"quiz and the result is LOVE
All you need is someone who understands you, and is at your side no matter what. You need someone who respects you and will always love you."
All you need is someone who understands you, and is at your side no matter what. You need someone who respects you and will always love you."
Did this quiz juz nw on facebook. Hav to say tat it's kinda true. The 'love' doesn't necessarily mean like a guy and gal kinda love. It can be any love, luv btw frens, luv for my family...
I enjoy being surrounded by the feeling of love. Most importantly, i like spreading my luv. I dun nd frens tat can give me the whole world or frens that make me feel cool. I luv having frens who reali luv me with their heart, ppl who dun take me for granted.
If you are my fren, u would prob knw tat i like bringing food to Uni and share wit everyone. Or juz bake some muffins or cookies for my frens. I luv the feeling when everyone feel the love and effort i put into these things. I dun bake bcos m free, i dun bake bcos i got nth better to do; i bake to relieve stress,most importantly i luv the satisfied look on ppl's face, i enjoy ppl feeling happy and loved. It's hard to find frens who reali luv u for who u r. So i treasure everyone o them. I can live without a bf, but who m i without a bunch of frens who luv me??!!
One of the good thing abt being the eldest kid is the love that my parents showered me with. I enjoy being surrounded by this feeling. Although my parents dun said it out, i can always feel their love for me. And of course my luv for my siblings. It is sumtyms awkward to say it out, especially to my brother and younger sis. But i stil luv them with all my heart. O course things are alot easier with my youngest sis. If u knw me, u wil def b able to tell tat i luv my youngest sis very very much. She is imperfect, but i luv her alot,alot alot....
M sure u hav sumone tat u luv, so tell that person tat u luv them. Or make sth to let them feel the luv!U will knw hw awesome it is to see their happy face. :)
I enjoy being surrounded by the feeling of love. Most importantly, i like spreading my luv. I dun nd frens tat can give me the whole world or frens that make me feel cool. I luv having frens who reali luv me with their heart, ppl who dun take me for granted.
If you are my fren, u would prob knw tat i like bringing food to Uni and share wit everyone. Or juz bake some muffins or cookies for my frens. I luv the feeling when everyone feel the love and effort i put into these things. I dun bake bcos m free, i dun bake bcos i got nth better to do; i bake to relieve stress,most importantly i luv the satisfied look on ppl's face, i enjoy ppl feeling happy and loved. It's hard to find frens who reali luv u for who u r. So i treasure everyone o them. I can live without a bf, but who m i without a bunch of frens who luv me??!!
One of the good thing abt being the eldest kid is the love that my parents showered me with. I enjoy being surrounded by this feeling. Although my parents dun said it out, i can always feel their love for me. And of course my luv for my siblings. It is sumtyms awkward to say it out, especially to my brother and younger sis. But i stil luv them with all my heart. O course things are alot easier with my youngest sis. If u knw me, u wil def b able to tell tat i luv my youngest sis very very much. She is imperfect, but i luv her alot,alot alot....
M sure u hav sumone tat u luv, so tell that person tat u luv them. Or make sth to let them feel the luv!U will knw hw awesome it is to see their happy face. :)
Friday, August 21, 2009
Placement
3rd year is when u get to go out to do your placement (except for some ppl who got BYE this yr).
To be honest, i have been waiting for this for soooooo long.
I wanna go out there and have a real idea of what would life b as a pharmacist.
I wanna go out there to apply all the things tat i have learned.
I wanna go out there and help some ppl.
Most importantly
I wanna know if i made a right choice and where would i be in the future.
(if u dun und this, it's alrite! ^^)
Anyway, we collected our workbook+where we would be placed.
Guess where m goin??
NUNAWADING!
My first reac is: WhereTH IS THAT????
seriously u dunno how disappointed i am when i saw the place on google map(wonder how ppl survive without it).
I dunno what am i expecting
but Nunawading which is almost an hour away is reali not sth i wanted for my 1st placement.
AND IT IS FREAKING IN ZONE 2 (pls tell me we're subsidized for transportation*finger cross*)
A zone1+zone2 monthly ticket cost 170bucks!!!ARRGH.....
Now instead of waking up at 7.30am, i hav to leave by then.
have to spend 2 hours to and fro juz to get to my pharmacy.
AIKS.... u shld have seen hw depressed i am in Uni.
And my frens are not helping at all.
first, jh laugh when she saw Nunawading.-.-
2nd, i read a review abt the pharmacy saying tat the pharmacist is rude!T.T
then, Chris asked me to catch a kangaroo back! @.@
Later on, sumone said: u hav been staying near the Uni for 3 yrs. All of us have travelled to uni everday for 3 yrs, so now it's ur turn to try travelling everyday! Sien.
So yup, it's a depressing day!
But m tat kind o person who wil get over it very soon.
It easy to say now coz m not actually waking up at 6.45am YET.
But i reali think tat there's a reason m posted there.
I am stil kinda excited (but also abit scare!).
JH said sth tat makes me feel better: U never knw wat's gonna happen wat! Who knws u r the one who get the most out o ur placement than anyone o us!
Then it reali got me thinking: for bad or for worse, i wil stil learn things even out o the worse scenario. So instead of getting myself all upset and depressed, why not embrace the fact and go with the flow? This might be a chance for me to grow up more! :D
For now, i wil juz stop my rant here. Mayb when i started placement, there will be more rant!
I reali do hope i wil get sth out of this placement. To be honest, my future is kinda depending on it. Ok, tym to get back to my clinical pharm presentation. It's juz a pain in the ass!aiks.
To be honest, i have been waiting for this for soooooo long.
I wanna go out there and have a real idea of what would life b as a pharmacist.
I wanna go out there to apply all the things tat i have learned.
I wanna go out there and help some ppl.
Most importantly
I wanna know if i made a right choice and where would i be in the future.
(if u dun und this, it's alrite! ^^)
Anyway, we collected our workbook+where we would be placed.
Guess where m goin??
NUNAWADING!
My first reac is: WhereTH IS THAT????
seriously u dunno how disappointed i am when i saw the place on google map(wonder how ppl survive without it).
I dunno what am i expecting
but Nunawading which is almost an hour away is reali not sth i wanted for my 1st placement.
AND IT IS FREAKING IN ZONE 2 (pls tell me we're subsidized for transportation*finger cross*)
A zone1+zone2 monthly ticket cost 170bucks!!!ARRGH.....
Now instead of waking up at 7.30am, i hav to leave by then.
have to spend 2 hours to and fro juz to get to my pharmacy.
AIKS.... u shld have seen hw depressed i am in Uni.
And my frens are not helping at all.
first, jh laugh when she saw Nunawading.-.-
2nd, i read a review abt the pharmacy saying tat the pharmacist is rude!T.T
then, Chris asked me to catch a kangaroo back! @.@
Later on, sumone said: u hav been staying near the Uni for 3 yrs. All of us have travelled to uni everday for 3 yrs, so now it's ur turn to try travelling everyday! Sien.
So yup, it's a depressing day!
But m tat kind o person who wil get over it very soon.
It easy to say now coz m not actually waking up at 6.45am YET.
But i reali think tat there's a reason m posted there.
I am stil kinda excited (but also abit scare!).
JH said sth tat makes me feel better: U never knw wat's gonna happen wat! Who knws u r the one who get the most out o ur placement than anyone o us!
Then it reali got me thinking: for bad or for worse, i wil stil learn things even out o the worse scenario. So instead of getting myself all upset and depressed, why not embrace the fact and go with the flow? This might be a chance for me to grow up more! :D
For now, i wil juz stop my rant here. Mayb when i started placement, there will be more rant!
I reali do hope i wil get sth out of this placement. To be honest, my future is kinda depending on it. Ok, tym to get back to my clinical pharm presentation. It's juz a pain in the ass!aiks.
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